Love me, love my dog

In Chinese, it is called "爱屋及乌". Meaning if you want to be in a relationship with somebody, you must be willing to accept everything about his/her, good or bad.

You have been practising it very well. You have shown your thoughtful concern to my family, my friends and even my colleagues. I am really grateful for that.

I told myself before I went for the visit, that I must learn from you. Of course I felt quite a bit of stress, but I knew that I must learn to love instead of pressuring myself.

I had a wonderful time. I really appreciate the warm welcome by the whole family. Time flies, and four days was just too short.

Of course there are chances ahead. I will improve myself and make better.

生病感想

生病真的很奇怪。

1. 睡了十二个小时，为什么还是觉得很累？
2. 鼻子里的什么腺可以酱厉害，不停地分泌那么多鼻涕？
3. 打喷嚏都不关眼睛的事，为什么眼睛一直流眼泪、不能开？
   
4. 没有食欲，吃得很少，为什么不见体重会下降？
5. 如果平时体温就比一般人低一点，那么比别人高一点的时候是不是发高烧？
6. 为什么我们不能选什么时候要生病，什么时候病好？
7. 生病可以claim insurance吗？可以的话就好，趁机赚一点钱，不然只能躺在床上很凄凉呢~

I am too bored and have nothing else to do, so I am going to translate what I just wrote. Please don't laugh at me but do correct me if I translate it wrongly.


Being sick is really weird.

1. I've slept for 12 hours but why am I still feeling tired?
2. Which gland in the nose is so powerful that can produce large amount of mucus, non-stop!
3. Sneezing has nothing to do with the eyes, but why are the eyes keep tearing and cannot open?
4. I lose appetite and eat very little, but why I don't lose weight?
5. If my usual body temperature is lower than that of normal people, am I having high fever when my body temperature is slightly higher than that of normal people?
6. Why can't we decide when to get sick and when to get well?
7. Can we make insurance claim by getting sick? It's good to get some money, otherwise just laying on bed is so miserable~
   

突发奇想

以前看《大长今》，现在看《宫心计》。突然有个疑惑。

我国的皇宫里吃的是什么？

每天吃咖喱？因为到处的马来餐馆都是卖同一种食物的。那我们的马来统治者，每天都吃类似食物吗？还是他们偶尔会吃吃意大利面、日本寿司、华人糕点？

我真的不知道耶，没踏入过皇宫，也没听人说起这个。

有谁知道的，可以告诉愚昧的我吗？

Helpless

When you are not able to control the situation, you feel helpless. How do you escape from it?

Chinese cabbage dumplings

Mum cooked chinese cabbage soup with meatballs for dinner tonight.
Reminds me of this~

Once upon a time, from the private kitchen...

I miss it.

Do you feel any gap between us?

To all my beloved friends. Especially to those who are already working, who are in a totally different world from me.

You may feel the gap between us these days.
You may feel that we have lesser subjects of conversation.
You may feel that I am a geek who only lives on doing lab works and reading journals.
You may feel that I am unable to share the story of your rat race life.
You may feel that I am immature.
You may feel that our friendship faded away.

What I can tell is,
I am still who I am.
I cherish every memory that we created together.
I appreciate our schooldays or our university life.

I remember those days when we stayed back at school after scout meeting on Saturdays.
I remember the hard but happy time when we were organizing the camping campfire.
I remember those days we hid in the little SPBT room.
I remember those days when we had tuition and barbeques at your house.
I remember those days when we hung out at Starbucks and McD.
I missed the wonderful trip we had in Gopeng.
I remember those days we studied together every afternoon.
I remember that you bought fries and brought CDs to my house on your foot, just because I felt bored.

I remember the day we met and knew each other in university.
I remember those days we attended lectures together.
I remember those days we chatted in the hostel throughout the whole night.
I remember those days we celebrated festivals and birthdays.
I remember those days we ran here and there to prepare the event.
I remember that unforgettable night in DTC.
I remember those days we slept in lecture hall.
I remember those days we skipped lectures together. (not very often la.... XD)
I missed those days we carried out the research project together.
I remember those days we had pillow talks, steamboat and yee sang.
I remember those days we took care of Burger and Hotdog.
I remember how we got the flags on National Day and waved them on your motorbike.
I remember that day, together we wore mortarboards and got our scrolls.

Now we have different path and our own destiny. One thing that will not change is that I value our friendship. You can always call me or just send me a message. You can tell me how arrogant your boss is, or complain about your dull daily routine, or just to share your excitement when you get your first bonus. If possible we can also meet up to show me your new hairstyle.

Thanks for being my friend, my lifelong friends.

醒了

过了昏昏沉沉的两个月，是时候把自己唤醒了。

发现太久没有动脑了。原来很多事情真的得用脑思考。觉得应该叫自己回到人间来了。把电脑从床上的窝，放回它在桌上的工作岗位。要过回我挥别了一段时候的日子。也不知道自己能不能够适应。

坐下来认真想想：
“这真是我这一、两年要做的事吗？”
“这真是我这辈子要走的路吗？”

当然不是第一次想这样的问题了。我想，这五个月以来，这问题出现在脑海里的次数比眨眼睛更频密。是想太多了吗？

是不是被之前的经历浇熄了原有的热诚？
是不是被之前的挫折蒙蔽了前方的阳光？
没有了初生之犊的那种冲动。凡事都想了又想，优柔寡断。

想了那么多，该行动了吧？也不知道自己还有能耐做什么其他的。怎样都得给自己一个交代。

我是幸福的

突然觉得，自己其实是幸福的。

别只看见自己没有的，而忽略了此刻拥有的一切。想当年会痛斥那些身在福中不知福的人，我更更不可以让自己像他们一样。为了以前得不到的、为了缺少一些别人有而我没有的，值得吗？相同的，我拥有许多他人没有的！

也许比较就是人天生的本性。我们总喜欢比较，把自己拿来跟别人比，甚至跟过去的自己比。如果是良性的竞争固然是好，但一旦比较下来，觉得不满足，而变得贪婪、变得不珍惜手中握着的幸福，到了有一天失去了的时候才来说后悔、‘如果’、‘早知道’。

很多人嘴里口口声声说活在当下，却没有真正去应用这句话的意义。活在当下，包括了珍惜、感受你现今周围的人事物。别把时间精神花在感慨更不应该去后悔以前犯的错，或在为将来杞人忧天。我们即改变不了过去，也操控不了未来。我们能做的，就是把每个今天过得更好。

看看四周，看看我所拥有的一切。还有什么抱怨的？幸不幸福，其实是自己下的定义。你认为自己幸福，你就是幸福的了。我要把握每一刻的幸福，不让它溜走了。

是时候改变自己消沉的心态了。


后记：巧妙的是，当我在写这篇部落格时，禧不偏不倚就在这个时候打电话来，说几乎相同的话。他刚从外头回来，一些事情令他有所启发，也在说着自己是幸福的。那么巧，真不知是哪来的使者，突然来把这讯息传给我们。