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忽然，很想跟自己说声：对不起

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起总是让自己不开心    

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起总是莫名其妙的忧伤

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起总是给自己太多的压力

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起总是忘了提醒自己好好照顾自己

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起总是不能为所欲为的做自己喜欢的事儿

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起总是和别人说对不起而忘了自己

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起因为悲观让自己不再相信生活    

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起因为倔强让自己受了很多伤      

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起因为伪装让自己活的很辛苦      

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起因为年轻让自己疲惫了太久

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起因为悲伤麻烦了一些爱我的人  

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起很久没有好好的照顾自己

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起很久没有好好的利用时间享受生活       

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起很久没有给自己挑一份喜欢的礼物

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起曾经为了别人而难为自己  

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起难过的时候只能让自己硬撑着

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起含泪微笑的时候我没有倾诉

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起心那么的疼还要假装着不在乎   

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起让自己装了这么多年的无所谓

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起很多东西我没有学会好好珍惜   

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起忘记了要搁浅

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起再也找不回原来的自己了


我弄丢了太多的东西、忘记了太多的事情、舍弃了太多的责任......

对不起，对不起，
对不起，真的对不起......

不敢乞求自己的原谅，
只有让自己活得更好才能对过去的生活有所补偿
忘记所有，重新开始
抬头仰望夜空，眼泪都已倒流，嘴角轻轻上扬

告诉自己
明天太阳依旧灿烂，生活却要华丽转身

-shared on Facebook-

你用心吗？

身子累，远远比心累好很多倍。

要学会感恩。

生活是一系列的问号。但有时候也未免太多问号了。多得无从选择。
唯有放慢脚步，甚至停下，闭上眼吸口气，听听心在说的话。

生活压力往往令你只看见半空的杯子。却忽略了里头的半杯水。

有多久，被外来的干扰影响，根本忘了怎么用心去生活。
今晚临睡前，就让自己安静地躺在床上思考这个问题：

你，有用心生活吗？

共勉之。

是我想太多？

得重新相信自己。
像找芝士的过程，虽然迷茫，但未必是糟糕的。
给自己打气打气！

成长

年轻时，我们冲动。
只相信自己的眼睛。
认为有梦想就是伟大。
觉得自己的感觉是对的。

成长了，我们的思想沉淀下来。
知道事情并非只有我们看得见的一面。
领悟到日久见人心的道理。
惊觉梦想其实不等于理想。

要知错，而不是后悔。
要放慢脚步，而不是放弃理想。
要时时警惕自己，而不是怨天尤人。

What? Mountain Dew glow in the dark?

We tried this at home last night. Sad to say that it didn't glow at all. Anyone else wanna give a try? And please share your result with me. ;)

Food! Foood!! Foooood!!! @ Miri Sarawak

Remember I just came back from Miri not long ago? Here I update you with some photos, mainly about food. ;p

First of all, of course the authentic Sarawak food: Sarawak laksa!

Then the famous kolok mee.
Another version of kolok mee.

Kuay chap. Sold by a classmate of my newly-made Miri friends. I liked it personally, though Selina and Ming Ching couldn't really accept the taste of the soup, perhaps too piggish?

Finally I tasted Lei Cha （擂茶）which was bitter. Lei Cha is a kind of Hakka food which is not widely known or accepted by most of the people. This bitter Lei Cha I had in Miri is definitely different from what I normally have in KL. No wonder Hui Ching doesn't like Lei Cha, haha.
It's a very healthy dish, made up of various types of vegetables including mint, long beans, 树仔菜, pickled raddish, black eyed peas, bean curds, etc. Anyone interested in this food? I know 2 places that serve nice Lei Cha, 1 in Tmn Sri Sinar and 1 in Jinjang. Of course both places are in KL, not Miri. I can bring you there if possible.

Another Hakka dish, 算盘子, which means the beads of abacus literally. Made of yam and tapioca flour. Many people know how to prepare this dish, but to prepare delicious, tasty and chewy ones is not easy.

A dish that I never heard or tasted before. 糟菜粉干/糟菜米粉, sorry I really don't know how to translate its name into English. Its taste was unique, so I think not everyone would like this dish. Basically it's thick vermicelli in thick soup, sour and spicy. The Chinese wine gave a strong body to the dish. Honestly I couldn't describe the taste of it, you really have to try it to understand what am I talking about, LOL.

We also indulged ourselves during the hot day by having this: the snow flakes. I forgot what's the name of the cafe, but I believe that they have branches all over Malaysia.
The soursop one was superb! With the soursop flesh but without its seeds, so refreshing and satisfying.

The trip was short and we only had half a day to walk around in Miri. Other than pampering ourselves with food, for sightseeing we just went to the Fan City (fan-shaped park?) 扇形公园.
The girls.

I'll certainly visit to Miri again someday.

强力推荐！

感谢淑慈把这个部落格介绍给我。

一个很棒的部落格。简单的文字，没有卖弄文采，却让你细细咀嚼。照片的含义，由你来发挥。

心情不好时，还是遇到了挫折而气馁时，甚至是无聊没事干时，都来看看。这里。你会觉得，你的一点小挫折又算得上什么？世界那么大，还有很多你不曾见过的情景。

我不认识以量，只看过他的这个部落格。他的耐性及爱心是最令我钦佩的地方。

希望你也会喜欢。

The little things

This morning I was in bad mood due to some personal reasons. Arrived at office, I checked my email and I saw this email. Simple, but it made me think.

~The ' L I T T L E ' Things~

As you might remember, the head of a company survived 9/11
Because his son started kindergarten.

Another fellow was alive because it was
His turn to bring donuts.

One woman was late because her
Alarm clock didn't go off in time.

One was late because of being stuck on the NJ Turnpike
Because of an auto accident.

One of them
Missed his bus.

One spilled food on her clothes and had to take
Time to change.

One's
Car wouldn't start.

One couldn't
Get a taxi.

The one that struck me was the man
Who put on a new pair of shoes that morning,
Took the various means to get to work
But before he got there, he developed
A blister on his foot.
He stopped at a drugstore to buy a Band-Aid.
That is why he is alive today..

Now when I am
Stuck in traffic,
Miss an elevator,
Turn back to answer a ringing telephone...

All the little things that annoy me.
I think to myself,
This is exactly where
God wants me to be
At this very moment..

Next time your morning seems to be
Going wrong,
The children are slow getting dressed,
You can't seem to find the car keys,
You hit every traffic light,
Don't get mad or frustrated;
It May be just that
God is at work watching over you.

May God continue to bless you
With all those annoying little things
And may you remember their possible purpose.


FYI, I am not a Christian. But the moral of the message is understandable. As I was reading the mail, I could feel that the anger in me faded away gradually.

Sometimes it's good to keep the forwarded emails in your mailbox. Open and read it when you have nothing else to do, or when you are not feeling well emotionally.

Hope this simple message will change the way you think and help you to have a nice day.